قهرهای بسیار طولانی مدت همسرم

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salam va khasteh nabashid.
man az Amrica tamas migiram va khoshhal misham ageh betonin mano rahnamee konin . man ham mesl in dost aziz ba hamin moshkel robe ro hastam ke shoharam hafteh ha va mah ha ba man ghahr mikoneh vali moshkel man be inja khatm nemishe. ghazieh az in gharareh ke man va shoharam ghabl ezdevaj va doran namzadi ke 5 sal tol keshid ham hamin moshkelat ro dashtim ,on ghahr mikard bedon dalil va baz khob mishod. va motasefaneh be khater dost dashtan ziadi man , va donestan in moshkelat ba vojod mokhalefat khoneh vadam bahash ezdevaj kardam. dar tole in 5 sal doran namzadi ma koli moshkel dashtim va in moshkelat be khianat hay seriali shoharam mireseh, shayad balegh bar 20 nafar in modat vared zendegish shodan ke vaghti man fahmidam on ghahr mikard. kholaseh man ham az roy dost dashtanam ( ya hemaghatam ) cheshmamo mibastam va say mikardam yadam bereh. ta parsal ke namzadam darsesh inja tamom shod va chon to Amrica kar peida nakard az inja raft . bayad begam on 2 ta Phd dare va alan Ostad ye daneshgah Amricaee to ye keshvar digast. vaghti az Amrica raft , raft ke bereh baray hamishe vali bad 2 mah ke man koli eltemas va khahesh kardam bar gasht. albateh bayad begam ke tamom in modat 1 sal gozashteh on har chi tohamt va harfay zeshteh be man zadeh va kholaseh hich aberoee nazashteh. ma ezdevaj kardim 10 mah gozashteh va hameh migoftan ke on be khater eghamat injast ke ezdevaj kardeh, vali az hagh nagzarim vaghti haleh hamsaram khobeh , khaili khobeh va hich moshkeli nadare. man ke fekr mikonam dochareh bimari Bipolar ast. hala man daghighan 2 maheh ke ghahreh va na tel hay mano javab mideh va na Sms hay mano , har chi ke fohsh va nasezah ham ast bat=ram kardeh. man shoharam va zendegimo dost daram va nemikham kar be jodaee bekeshe, man to in keshvar ba koli madrak mitonamsabet konam ke on ( Verbal Abuse, Sexual Abuse va Financial Abuse)mano azar dade ke hata natoneh biad inja che bereseh be inkeh behesh green cart bedan , alan ham dochareh bimari afsordegi shodam , hamash geryeh mikonam va ghalbam dard mikoneh. Dr behem 2 ta ghors afsordegi va yek ghors ghalb daddeh. hala mishe rahnamaeeim konin chetori shoharamo be zendegim bar gardonam , hata ba vojodi ke midonam on behem vafadar nist. (